Matthew 6:14,15

yesterday Chris and I went to church for the first time as a family. I have not been since I was little. I have always wanted to g back, just never had the courage to find a church that was right for me. Well the guy that married Chris and I, Shane, is the youth pastor at the Church of Greenbrier. It is inside Greenbrier High and I must say that I feel really good about this church. The message was Matthew 6:14,15. For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive men their sins, your father will not frgive your sins.
This really hit me because of what has happened to me in the past year. First my mother was taken from me and now my grandpa. How can I forgive these people that did this to me? I know when the time is right I will forgive them, but I just cant possibly do it right now. I started crying when Chuck (the preacher) was saying all this and had to leave the auditorium. When the service was over he came over to me and said he was sorry for what happened (Chris told him what had happened) and said he understood and if I needed to talk to someone he would be there. So I think God was telling me that everything would be okay and it was meant for me to be here on that day. I really didnt feel like going b/c my stomach had been REALLY hurting the day before, but glad I sucked it up and went. I am really excited about taking this journey again and getting closer to God. It seems like the perfect fit for our family. They have what they call the "Brier Patch" for the kids. Mallory was in the 3 yr old room and Collin stayed with the babies. There are only 4 babies including Collin so I didnt feel bad leaving him. I just have to make sure no one is sick since his surgery is only a few weeks away. But they just fell in love with him, I mean who wouldnt? LOL anyways....I feel really good about this.